Tuesday, June 7, 2016
There are many types of artists out there & everyone of them has to figure out what "success" means individually. Before my tumor, I was very happy with the success I had achieved. I hadn't yet reached a point with my painting where I wanted to be but I thought I could if I continued to work at it. I had been invited to participate in an exciting invitational exhibition, I was getting accepted into some of the prestigious shows I was applying to & I was doing commissions. I still wasn't selling a lot & I was getting just as many rejections as acceptances but I could call myself a professional artist.
While going through my slump, I've had to redefine what I thought of as success. Success for me has nothing to do with shows & sales. It has everything to do with whether or not I like what I'm producing.... being able to paint something & say "look what I can do". The rejections that I've gotten during the last couple of years were followed by relief because I didn't really like the paintings anyway. Technically speaking, my execution was okay & other people would say they liked them but there was always something I didn't like.
I like this one. I see a few things wrong with it but I'd rather not say what they are. But after 7 days - 3 keeps, 3 wipe offs, & 1 day off to go swimming with the grand kids - I think I'll keep going for now.
Thank you for your time & Have a great day :)